Hi Sweet Friends and Bloggers - Good Morning. You are so lucky you're not here right now, the morning breath in this house is, well, intense! Taylor and I are off to brush our teeth right after we eat some breakfast. Anyone want to come and be our personal chef for a few days? No? No. Okay.
Things have been real busy around here, which is good, but it's taking it's toll on me. Ever since I had Taylor, my hormones have been all whacky and it's been messing with me every once in awhile, but it hasn't been bad. (Just a lot of hot flashes, irregular cycles, the skin of a teenager, but really that's it.)
Well, the past few months I have just been feeling so stressed - whether there was something to be worried about or not. I feel all panicky inside and rushed (like when you realize you are late for an appointment you completely forgot or something) and it's really been hard on me lately. I am always feeling rushed. There is nothing I can do to get the feeling of panic to go away, no matter how relaxed I feel, no matter how wonderful my life is, no matter how much I slap a smile on my face - I just feel rushed and panicked.
So - not fun, but I've dealt with it. That's my only choice, right!? I would totally go see a doctor but I have no health insurance due to tight finances. (Taylor has insurance - I just feel like I need to say that!!). I do not want to put us further in debt than we already are - so there's the issue. I keep thinking that if I lost some weight things would feel better, but it just gets me all worked up even more and feeling frenzied and a bit defeated.
So... if I have been snappy or short with anybody or have been removed or a little less fun, it's just that I've been dealing with this crud for the past 3-4 months, perhaps more. Maybe blogging about it will make me feel better?!
Disclaimer time - I totally know that I live a blessed life with a wonderful support of family and friends, I have a lovely husband and a son who makes my heart so proud. So when I have so much to be thankful for, what the heck is going on with me!?
Thanks for putting up with me, sweet friends.